Feelings of hurt

I feel as though my heart is going to explode. I feel the pain of loss and the shadows are creeping in fast. Why dies it keep haunting me? Making the ache in my heart awaken? What have I done to deserve this?
By this, I mean the nitemares, and the pain of memories dredged up from my past.
Why can’t I just have 1 decent notes sleep? Is that really too much to ask?

Down in the dumps.

Why is it when things start to look up everything always seems to fall to shot:(